Misunderstandings continue

Now, I guess I’m not sure what the phrase, “I won’t do anything to sabotage your plans,” means when a husband says it.  I thought it was pretty clear, straightforward and supportive.  And I am aware that I am in control of the choices I make, what food I put into my mouth, if and when I get off my patoot and exercise, etc.  However, I didn’t thinking baking your wife’s favorite chocolate chip cookies and cooking them just underdone, the way she likes them best makes the cut here.  I didn’t notice what was happening until I smelled them cooking.  I posed the question, “what’s up with the cookies?  They’re not exactly making this easy.” – with an assumption that he was understanding the context.  His reply was that he was making them to get them out of the house.  We had them, and there was no sense in wasting them, so he had to make them.  I’d like to note for the record that I did not buy them. 

 

This is going to be harder than I thought.  Though my husband made it clear he would not be joining me on this “adventure”, after I implored him to do so (especially after his last doctor appointment).  But he did say he would be supportive and uttered the above phrase in showing so.  No matter how much support I get at work, and even from my kids – who have been great so far, encouraging me to exercise, I guess I didn’t realize how much of an effect my husband would have on me.  It’s not like me to let anyone influence me in that capacity…or at least so I thought or would like to think about myself.  But maybe that’s one of my problems.  Well, that’s not a maybe, really. 

 

Before getting into the psychoanalytical repercussions of this realization I’ll stop for now.  And cut.